How do you explain the daily comings and goings of someone who lives a life with the blessing and curse of having ADHD? In my twenties, I had the drive and hyperfocus of a young lass who could do anything I set my mind to do. At the time, I didn’t understand how my brain worked. I believe that I had to work a 100 times harder than the so-called average person. As I matured, i accepted that I just had to work harder than anyone else. I didn’t understand why, nor did I question why i had to endure so much more blood, sweat, and tears, and I adapted. I believed that this was just the way it was. I would say to myself I just have to work harder and harder . . . and I did. As I got older, my drive began to deteriorate. Don’t get me wrong.I had to drive for a very long time. It was in my 50s that the invincible drive slowed down. At first I thought it was a depression Or the same was dying out. And then, I had an epiphany. An a aha moment. Nothing bad. It was just something that told me to just be. And that’s where I am right now.
